Can I be real here??
This is a question which still plagues me! Yes, I have overcome a lot and have progressed in this walk called Life. Yet still, I find myself asking this question from time to time.
Am I good enough to dream? Am I good enough to pursue my dreams? Am I good enough to even begin? Am I good enough to attempt this new challenge? Am I good enough to be a reference point? Am I good enough to create change?
Am I good enough to be wanted by the man of my dreams? Am I good enough to become his wife? Am I good enough to birth his children and be a mother? Am I good enough to live a life according to the principles of my Father (God)?
These questions are just a few of those which often hit me each time I decide to believe and step out. Funny that eh?
How does one deal with this and move forward toward the goal?
I don’t know if this truth is the same for you, but it certainly is for me. These questions will never go away! There was a time I literally used to cry to God in anguish, that He would take away doubt and fear from my very being and make me practically an emotionless warrior.
I have since come to realise that these very same fears and doubts actually make me this
emotionless warrior (come on now, ain’t nobody without emotions in this world, girl please!!).
Let me explain. My natural temperament is such that I am quite emotional, doubtful and fearful. But, I now know that who I am is not defined by my feelings or what others and society says about me, but instead, who I am is defined by the Truth, by my Creator, the Source of Life, God.
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7
Ever since learning this, I choose to believe and live in this truth daily. It has, overtime, worked and is continuing to work its way into my temperament, so that I am actually changing.
I actually now LOVE doing things that make me afraid. If it makes me afraid, I am definitely more likely to do it. Even so, those very thoughts still hit me, but guess what, I move forward in spite of them. Yes sometimes, they shout at me, they cause my knees to shake, my palms and armpits to produce loads of sweat, my words to become inconsistent ‘goglijunk’. But there is beauty in walking through my fears. I become bold without realising, I become thicker skinned without noticing, I begin to inspire others without even trying to, and above all, I most definitely become Good Enough!
P.S. This is definitely one of those things that requires constant application. If you fail, simply brush it off, get up and keep it moving. You are DEFINITELY Good Enough!
I’d love to hear your thoughts, leave your comments down below.
Speak soon. X