I begin this post with a MASSIVE deep sigh lol. These past few weeks have been fairly difficult for me. Many things have happened around me pulling the strings of my heart and aiming to draw out anger, dissension, un-forgiveness and the likes.
I’ve recently taken to reading a scripture in the morning and then re-reading and meditating on it before I go to bed. I’m stuck on this one at the moment :
Therefore, imitate God like dearly loved children. Live your life with love, following the example of Christ, who loved us and gave himself for us. He was a sacrificial offering that smelled sweet to God.
Ephesians 5 vs 1-2 CEB
‘Love, following the example of Christ’……..How did Jesus show us to love? I’ve been pondering on this since yesterday. This question is causing me to question my responses and reactions to a lot of things. Its causing a squeamish feeling in me because I know it requires me to turn my back against my emotions and ‘what makes sense’……’what the person deserves for speaking/treating/behaving towards me in that way’. Ooohhh and that hurts!! I tell you it does.
It’s funny because the older I’m getting the more I’m truly understanding this verse :
“Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: “Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You’re not in the driver’s seat—I am. Don’t run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I’ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I’m leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendour in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn’t, you realise, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God.”
Luke 9 :23-27 MSG
This walk isn’t an easy one, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything else.